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What have I gotten into? - 10/3/2005 9:39:06 AM

CalliopePurple

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I haven't been looking for a relationship. But of course, my life usually has other plans.

There's a girl I've talked to online for nearly two years now. We've gotten fairly close and we know each other's kinks and stuff (she's a masochist, loves blood and breathplay). She has a boyfriend, though, so I've deliberately kept my emotions at a distance.

Things got turned on their ass last night, though. After a little online fooling around, I briefly wondered what her boyfriend would do if he were aware of our actions. She replied that he wouldn't care because they're both bi and have an agreement that same-sex partners are perfectly fine.

And then she asked me flat out if I'd be her girlfriend. That was a *blinkblink* moment. Thought about it, told her it sounded good as long as I could talk to her guy and make sure it really was fine with him.

We also discussed me being involved with people physically closer to me since she kinda lives in Arkansas at the moment. Got a "that's fine", so now I'm sitting back and wondering how in the hell I got myself into this. Never thought I'd be a secondary in a poly relationship. Didn't really think I'd get involved with poly anyway.

Oh well, I try to take things in stride. The only kinkiness thus far, and that will transfer over when the distance isn't problematic, is a top/bottom factor for play. She's not my sub, though if my luck continues this way, I might find out that an old friend who admits to having a small crush on me wants a D/s relationship.

Life is just odd sometimes.

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Don't give me love that's clean and smooth
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RE: What have I gotten into? - 10/3/2005 9:48:00 AM

EmeraldSlave2

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Oh well, I try to take things in stride. The only kinkiness thus far, and that will transfer over when the distance isn't problematic, is a top/bottom factor for play. She's not my sub, though if my luck continues this way, I might find out that an old friend who admits to having a small crush on me wants a D/s relationship.

Granted to me the entire situation seems silly and a bit too middle-schoolish for me "Do you like me? Check Yes or No"...what about all your health and mental stability issues you were having oh not so long ago?

If this is what makes you happy and you're enjoying it, then go for it. But, based on this information, it just sounds like innocent cyber playing at best and a recipe for drama and disaster on all sides at worst.

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RE: What have I gotten into? - 10/3/2005 11:38:23 AM

CalliopePurple

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Slowly working on the mental health issues. Therapy is good, meds are good, friends are better. I'm more stable than I was, though, and I'm not stupid enough to lie to anyone about the fact that I might have another bad moment and end up causing a lot of drama. My biggest fear right now is just that.

I'm attempting to be optimistic, but not so much that I lose sight of reality. Yes, right now things are mostly online. In the future, I'd like to think that'll change for the better.

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So bring it on, I've been bruised
Don't give me love that's clean and smooth
I'm ready for the rougher stuff
No sweet romance, I've had enough
~Elton John - I Want Love

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