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What's your story? - 2/23/2006 2:12:53 PM

nonuts4thshoney

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First off let me say that i may not word my question correctly so if i confuse anyone please say so so i can reword my question.

Master and i are considering going poly. We have both discussed it and are now actively seeking to build frienships with others and see where it goes from there. Master wants my input on the situation to some extent. She has no problem with me speaking to other subs or slaves. If i come across one that is of interest to me She has given me permission to speak with them and get to know them a little. Of course i make Master aware of whom i'm speaking to so that She can introduce Herself to this person and get to know them as well.

i have been in the lifestyle for a little over a year now. Prior to finding this lifestyle, i was married for 10 years in a very vanilla realationship. When i just brought up the idea of a threesome i got the look of shock..LOL!! i was taught that you cannot love one person and be capable of being with others. i was told that if you could be with another person YOU WERE NOT IN LOVE. So i have always had it in my head to some extent that people aren't capable of loving more than one person. This feeling has changed alot over the past year because i have allowed myself to open my mind to new experiences.

When talking to others from this site, i get a feeling like i'm doing something WRONG but at the same time a relief that in my realtionship its OKAY by my Master. It sometimes just feels very weird. i say to myself "wow, i'm flirting with another or getting to know another and thats okay". i'm very excited with the thought that maybe i'll be sharing my life with another. At the same time i'm very scared because i don't know what to expect. i don't know what emotions i will go through, what challenges will arise between myself and Master and the three of us.

i guess my question is this : For all of you who are poly and had been in a realtionship with three or more for THE FIRST TIME, what was your experience like? What did you go through emotionally? How did you adjust if you had certain issues (whatever they may be)? What is it that you loved the most about your first experience in a poly relationship? Was there a tough period you went through then overcame it? What type of bonds did you have with the others in your relationship?

i am not looking for advice from anyone. i'd like to hear stories good or bad from people who went poly for the first time. Master's please feel free to tell your story too :) i'm not necessarily looking just for sub/slave stories

-carolyn

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RE: What's your story? - 2/24/2006 1:29:18 PM

nonuts4thshoney

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hmmmm....maybe i worded this wrong. i expected at least a story or two. Someone please let me know if my post is confusing in anyway.

-carolyn

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RE: What's your story? - 2/24/2006 2:50:51 PM

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what was your experience like? What did you go through emotionally? How did you adjust if you had certain issues (whatever they may be)? What is it that you loved the most about your first experience in a poly relationship? Was there a tough period you went through then overcame it? What type of bonds did you have with the others in your relationship?

My first poly experience was almost 10 years ago and it did not involve BDSM at all. I had always been attracted to women and one woman in specific at the time. The boyfriend I had then encouraged me to explore the attraction. So I became involved in a relationship with him and with her. They did not have a relationship together. Unfortunately, my boyfriend had some rather unrealistic expectations and quickly regretted encouraging me in this direction. Both relationships eventually ended, but I cherish the experience.

What it showed me was that it is possible to love more than one person and that loving another does not diminish your love for someone else. The experience prepared me to be open to the idea of a long term poly relationship and gave me an appreciation of the challenge in managing time.

I am currently in a poly M/s relationship with my Lord and alandra. The three of us have a relationship together. He is our primary focus, but we are all committed to having a life long relationship between us. Our relationship is made even more complicated because it is long distance. We have found that that distance magnifies some issues and hides others. We deal with things by openly and constructively discussing our thoughts and feelings. Keeping things to ourselves would be a recipe for disaster.

The house is even larger than the three of us, since my Lord and alandra are good friends with denika and her husband. My relationship with them is slowly evolving since I have limited time to spend with them and I am very reserved. denika bottoms with my Lord and they have a very informal D/s relationship. The four of them are intimate with each other. Because of the distance there are times that I feel left out and isolated; because of the distance it is difficult for me to form a connection with denika and Rob.

The relationship that I have with my Lord just resonates with me; it gives me the opportunity to demonstrate my authentic self. My tough periods come when I question and start to doubt who I am. When I am aware and accept my need to submit to him then I am at peace, but getting rid of some of the old thoughts and ideas of how I am supposed to behave have been a challenging process.

My relationship with alandra satisfies my bisexual desires. For me there is something that I get from being intimate with a woman that no man could ever give me. She and I share in the responsibility of meeting our Lord’s needs and wants. We complement each other. On the surface people would think that we are a lot alike, but it is the differences that make us a good match for each other and for this house.

The three of us are deeply committed and devoted to making this relationship last. We are not perfect, but we seek to be the best we can be at any given moment.

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RE: What's your story? - 2/24/2006 3:05:03 PM

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You just asked a very big question for me. My first poly involved myself, my long distance master, his other slave who got divorced after the first two years of the relationship to her husband and then moved in with our master AND a bi-polar sub off her meds with a 6 year old daughter who moved in and then moved out in the course of a year. In the end, I asked to be released.

There's a lot to ruminate and summarize on. I'm certainly a stronger person because of it.

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