LadiesBladewing
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You mentioned another slave in this picture... where does xhe fit into all of this?
Having an alpha is an interesting situation, and very much depends on the dynamics of the household. In our household, when we -have- an alpha, the alpha is often a servant who is being groomed for the possibility that xhe may, at some point, join the Owners -- or, if xhe is called to service but not leadership, that xhe would become the majordomo, in charge of all of the household as a whole, answering only to the Owners. Therefore, there might be no sense among the other servants of the alpha's submission to us. It would be apparent to -us- in the way that xhe did hir work, and in our private interactions, but I don't think that many of the servants would see the way that xhe treated them or interacted with them in our presence. For us, this is necessary, to assure that the alpha has the respect of the servants, and that they know that xhe speaks with our voice when it comes to matters of training/discipline for our servants. In the same way, we would not discipline our alpha publically, unless xhe -severely- disappointed us in a manner that meant that xhe would lose her position as alpha. Again, time has shown us that disciplining her in public would diminish her authority with her charges... not a good situation.
It seems to me that there were mixed messages in your situation. On the one hand, you were told that your Owner's alpha was submissive -- but you don't see evidence of that, so you question it. However, perhaps she is transitioning -- in which case, she may be submissive to him, but not display that submission (and even display some measure of dominance) around you. Yielding, in this situation (and, really, in any situation where there is an alpha) means yielding not only to the dominant but to the alpha as well. On the other hand, your Owner may not know how to handle multiple individuals in his life that need attention, so he hopes to have the multiples, but to be able to continue to dedicate his attention to his alpha, and hope that the rest of you will just settle yourselves into this life to his satisfaction. In this case, it is unlikely that any amount of conversation will resolve the issues, because it is unlikely that this owner can even conceive of the responsibilities and demands on him of having multiple servants in his care -- and still having to attend to the needs of his alpha.
Since you don't discuss much about the relationship between the 3rd individual, yourself, and the owner and alpha, I really can't get much of a sense of how this dynamic is working for you. In our household, if we had a servant who had been here a while, xhe probably would have been assigned to get you acclimated to our household and how we work -- and to help you to fit in.
Our goal is to have servants who want and need to be a part of what we are, long term. We try to find out, early on, whether they'll be a good fit for us to start with, and then work to develop things as they fall out over time... and we hope for the best for all of us. If you've talked to your Master about this, and he hasn't worked on solutions, or helped you to find someone in the household to guide you (and especially since you acknowledge that you weren't what he was looking for), perhaps he has decided that the time has come for you to either make the decision to commit to the household, or to walk away and find something more suitable. Or perhaps he has decided this is too much work for him, and he needs someone to cut bait and run. In the first case (that of it being time for the servant to make a real, solid commitment), we sometimes leave these kind of decisions in our servants' hands as well -- when they are clearly struggling, and we cannot find a way to help them, or we try and they don't really seem to want to do anything to help themselves. In the second case, the decision has already been made -- it is only a question of who will cut bait and whether the individual who seems to be on the leader-line will get the message.
It seems to me that you have a decision to make. Are you ready to jump into the Void, and take a chance on this family that is being created -- or do you feel that you have nothing in common with these people enough to dedicate your life to the family that they are working on? Once you decide that, you will know what you need to do.
Lady Zephyr
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