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cynthiamarie -> RE: ~ ALL FEMALES-STALKER INFO IN THE 818 AREA CODE~ (3/30/2005 11:10:10 AM)
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LOL, this does not increase my feelings of safety any, or make me feel like i can protect myself in any way. The guy didn't do things in front of witnesses, but a phone trap would have helped. It would have been really nice, when the policemen i called came to question us...if i could have had his screaming out, "I raped you once bitch, and I'm coming in to do it again!" and the two hours of beating on my door and obscene threats on tape. The cops sided with him, because he told them that i was his girlfriend and i was angry with him. i heard one officer telling him to leave for 24 hours until i wasn't upset anymore. As soon as the police left, he was back at it again. i called up 911 again (Van Nuys, California), but after an hour they still weren't there yet...i called again, and they'd said that they were having a shift change over, and this was logged in as a domestic problem, and was i still having trouble? i was terrified (the stalker was high on drugs and alcohol, so i don't understand why the police didn't do anything to help me) and held the phone out for her to hear the screaming/pounding better.
There were no other exits. i had all my furniture piled up in front of the door. Then he got in through one of my windows without breaking it and raped me again while i was waiting for the police. When he left, i took a shower and almost scrubbed all my skin off. i removed the furniture...what was the use? The police finally came...a man. He came into my apartment and stood directly in front of me, and then asked me why i would't look him in the eyes! i was asked if i'd ever had sex with the guy who "raped" me, and i said yes, because he's raped me before. (My job used to be at a group home, i'd leave on Friday and come back home on Monday. The first time, he was hiding in the bedroom or bathroom or something, because i didn't see him until i started putting away groceries.)
The officer told me that i shouldn't be living by myself, that i should have kept living with my parents until i got married and left home....and i just couldn't believe it. Also, he asked me was i on any birth control, and i said no, because i don't have a boyfriend. i just couldn't believe the entire conversation! It's incredible that the law takes away my right to protect myself, but won't take over the job of protecting me. Nobody ever suggested phone traps either or told me any way i could protect myself. (i was around 21 or 22, and was separated and waiting for my divorce to be final.)
i had advertised at a local college to get a roommate. He was one of the applicants, and i'd said i'd think about it, but then he somehow found out one of my jobs and was watching me there, and then the phone calls started. It's very scary to have someone call you and tell you where you were and what you did all day when you couldn't see them, and describe every person you spoke with and have them threaten to hurt your friends. To be told that women fight it at first, but once they're pregnant they stop...and he kept calling me to ask if i were pregnant yet. Nothing i said would make him leave me alone, ignoring him and hanging up didn't work either.
Yes, i'm very paranoid now...have PTSD, panic attacks, dissociation and live on SSI. Over 15 years of therapy haven't changed anything so i've quit going...this was so much more than just a "lousy f*". If it weren't for all those suicide prevention hotlines California had, it would have killed me. i will always have personal safety issues.
Sorry about saying anything that required editing. Forgive? i won't do it again. (The gun i plan to get is going to be used for target practice only, lol.) Legal or not, i wan't a cop to believe me next time, so i have tape recorders now...all through the house.
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