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How Online Fun Turns Into Real Time Rape - 7/1/2004 7:12:43 PM

MasterMalice

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Master Malice Sir i hope You will read this i put it on the boards at the

d/s garden......after asking a question about if a sub is safe....the

responses finally led me to put this experience on the board......a warning

for subs to be more careful and to follow the rules. i am not sure i

will go back to the l/s in real if i do it will take a long time. and will

probably still bounce into the room....but as a person...not a sub not for

serious.....You will understand why when You read. i know i made stupid

mistakes...but want others not to make the same ones ........thank You Sir

for read miskat

I don't believe that this can be taken to seriously. Justin Sir's seriousness is important. The story He posted is an example of what can happen to a person when she/he puts herself/himself on the line.

I wasn't going to do this but feel the need to now. So with great difficulty I am going to post my experience.

With a heavy heart I have to admit to my mistakes. Some made before I even entered the room. Because I have no close friends in the lifestyle I omitted to set up a safe callthinking it was okay because we weren't planning on playing..He assured me that play was not expected on a first meeting. That we needed to get to know each other better. I took my car to the restaurant I met Him at this also making me feel safe because I could leave whenever I desired.

I didn't know Him very well.but had spent some hours talking about safewords and limits. Believing He was definitely from the lifestyle when He talked about hard and soft limits. He discussed my hard limits with me the night before in chat. Asked me to give Him a list of things I thought were my hard limitsand I did. I told him of my fear of having my neck touched. That I wouldn't do blood, watersports, etc. that I couldn't deal with my face being touchedand that for the time being..i couldn't have my chest harmed.

I didn't feel uncomfortable with Him in the restaurant. I was a little surprised when He suggested we go and play.but not scared or apprehensive. Mistakenly I agreed..my desire to experience more over riding good old common sense. Looking back my next mistake was a critical one.When He suggested we leave my car to search for a place to go I agreedleaving my purse as always locked in the trunk.

Upon entering the room He turned to me as I slipped off my coat.and before I could even gasp He had ripped my shirt right off my back. He was between the door and I. I was shirtless. And for the first time a little scared. I rationalized to myself that maybe He just liked to rip things..and backed up a little further into the room. He very demandingly told me to remove the rest of my clothes quickly or He would be cutting them off methat's when I realised He did in fact have a knife in His hand.i don't believe I need to say that terror ran through me then. Running through my mind was my shirt is rippedmy car isn't hereand I don't even have the money in my purse.

My clothes were quickly removed and He told me to get on my hands and knees. That I was to be punished for moving too slowly. I did my butt had been flogged before so I thought I could handle this..i was okay for a little while as He paddled me.however, I soon found my limitwas crumpling to the floorbeing reminded to stay on my hands and knees.

When he was finished He grabbed me by the neck and drug me onto the bed. I couldn't breath.terrified that I wouldn't make itthat he would strangle me. He didn't..because He decided to use another limit against memy face.i watched in horror as He closed His fist and started to smash my face as hard as He could..i was crying.feeling petrified would be the only word.

I was too scared to fight back. I didn't fight back.He grabbed my legs pulling them up by my head..He inserted a small amount of Himself inside methen He put His elbows into the back of my knees and wrapped His fingers around my throat again. He called me names that usually excite me..but now they sickened me.made me feel dirty.

He urinated inside my bodymy stomach was heaving and I was having a hard time breathing..this seemed to excite Him.sex has never hurt so much..He used my body as hard and as nastily as He could.when He was doneHe used the paddle on my ribs and tummyit hurt so bad I thought he was going to break them.

Then he started on my chest..my newly healed chest.He paddled them until the bad one started to bleed..i was crying, whimperinghe told me to shut up.i tried

No matter what I did I seemed to anger Him more.whenever I did soHe would punch my face again.

By the time He was done my body had been paddled, whipped, punched.abused more than I could take.my limits broken.my safeword ignored..

When He tired of me.He told me to go shower.my knees shaking so hard I could hardly walk. When I came out.holding my shirt together.He was ready to leave and shoved me out the door.He took me back to the car and told me He would be used my slut sub body again soon..and drove away.

It took me a while to pull myself together and go home..my errors in judgement were great!! These are mistakes I will not be repeatingand I hope others will not make. I have learned that I need more information.name, address, phone number, place of work, etcthat I do need a safe calland I do need to take my time

Playing again will be a hard thing to doand will not be done unless I truly know and trust the other person. This will most likely take a very long time.

< Message edited by MasterMalice -- 7/2/2004 12:42:02 PM >